friends

so I've been in worcester since a couple days before christmas and today I was driving around with my grandmother and aunt cutting through the CVS parking lot when I spot Matt Z going up to the bank so I tell them to stop the car and I proceed to unroll the window and yell his name he stopped and we said Hi and Bye bcause that's all I wanted to say but he kept looking at me like I was crazy even though he talked to me, so I was like whatever he knows who I am.
So a few minuets ago I texted him and apparently since I got my haircut he couldn't tell who I was right away and that's why he was looking at me like I was crazy, but he had figured it out before I texted him.. which is good I guess.

Twilight?

well I just went and saw Twilight (whit Josh who loved it because he was drinking beer throughout the movie) for one dollar, yay college kids movie discount nights, and all I'll say is it was totally worth the one dollar I paid to see it.

take it as you will

VP

So yesterday at our meeting about the bakesale tomorrow (that I'm making delicious cupcakes for) I found out that at the last meeting that I didn't go to that I became the SAGES (students association for greater english studies) Vice President yeah it woulda been nice for someone to let me know... i guess they didn't think it was that important to tell me.

In other even better news my peacoat arrived today and it fits and I'm happy
I've always wanted a peacoat so when my mom showed me one that was on sale at walmart I bought it without a second thought.... probably not the smartest thing, but like I said it fits so I'm happy.

now I'm just waiting for my avon package which should be here today or tomorrow.
and the 100 postards I ordered from amazon about 7 days ago and they still havn't even been shipped.... truthfully that pisses me off because I would've already had them if I ordered right through amazon instead of seller, I'm never ordering anything from this seller (---greatbookdeals) again.

now I have to go do my english work.

only four more things left to do on my list of stuff I have to get done before the end of the semester... yay last day is next Tuesday and I'll be back in Worcester for Chrstams by Friday night I can't wait.

It's to late... I mean early

So for some reason I'm nt tired though I did get up for my 9:30am class this morning (yesterday morning) and have been up since. So I'm working on getting all my stuff I still need to do for classes... only two weeks left I can't wait for it to be over!!

black friday

yeah i did i got an xbox and guitar hero with the guitar for only 200 bucks oh yeah

NaNOT

So I've completely failed at NaNoWriMo. So far I've had time to type up around 5k words thats horrible. with all the school and essays I had to do and with real work piled on top of that it just wasnt meant to be so unless I can write about 45k words in three days I fail.
oh well,
there's always next year and I will succeed then.

... hopefully :)

insta-dread

So wanna know what's worse than trying to straighten your hair. Getting a mini insta-dreadlock from the back of a hairdryer. It was wound so friggin' tight around that I had to cut it out luckily it didn't leave a bald spot.
You'd think after all the bad hair cuts I wouldn't let my mother near my head again, I think I might have learned my lesson this time.

good times bad times

last night into the early morning was interesting

all I'm gonna say is waking up drunk + going to work = not a whole lotta fun

morning

I woke up feeling physically sick and looking like a cried myself to sleep last night this morning and I'm not quite sure what to do about it. i can a couple pills to help with the head and wash my face, eyedrops will get rid of most of the redness of my eyes. Nothing will make the actual sick feeling go away though.
I never really considered my dreams fucked up (well on ocasion I did) until the one I had last night. I mean who dreams of Shaun White and Tosh Towened at the same time? Aparantly I do. That in itself is fucked up. But no there's more involved, aparently running from the cops and trying to get into the maternity ward at the hospital had to be thrown in too.
Now my friends I have to leave for work and make it there in ten minutes.
I don't even have my shoes on yet.
Today is not going to be a good day.

blargh

this is just an update to let you know that I'm still breathing still able to use my fingers still capable of a choherant thought... not sure about that one yet we'll see
I've been busy but after this week it will slow down I mean this week coming up when its over this week is going to be hecktick so much to do and barely anytime to do it but it will all slow down once this week coming up ends
for now I have to go find my math homework

prez o

so Obama is the president. I guess that's good ... for everything except the economy.
oh and I suppose it's good that Palin doesn't have a chance now.
who the fuck is Joe Sixpack?
why would anyone like being referred to by that name?

Day of the Dead

Happy Halloween motherfuckers!!
Tonight has been great so far.
Had some weird times with some awesome people.
"We're an Oreo!!!"
no one will understand that but it was amazingly hilarious.

woot

did it sent it'

busy much?

so I've been busy like I always am these days hence the lack of posts. if I hadnt mentioned it before I was trying to write 20k word story by october 27th and I did not reallty start it until about two weeks ago so far I'm almost at 12,ooo words so I only have about 8,000 left to go I'm trying to get it all done today and I think it would already be done had I not had to work today.

Oh noes!

It's snowing outside right now as I type this. It's not even Halloween yet :(

Holy (non) Bullitens Batman!!!

this should have been a bulliten but myspace sucks balls and wont let me post it as one.

who was the last persn you sat on the couch with ?My mom
Are you in a relationship?nope
Do you kiss a lot of people?no.... maybe I want to though
Have you ever streaked across a football field?Noooo
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?Well it depends on whos around

Are you happy with where you are relationship wise now?yeah actually
How long ago did you hug someone?like 4 seconds ago it was an air hug with matt

What gets you happy?things
Who was the last person you yelled at?chazz
Last night did you go to sleep smiling?last night no but the night befre yeah

Where did you sleep last night?my bed
Did you have a good day yesterday?no it sucked... because of work
When was the last time you bought something?today
Have you ever told someone you love them?Yes
Do you play an instrument?I try
Is your phone within a meter radius of you?i think so
What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?very dirty white and wood
Are you doing this just because you're bored?procrastination
What is bothering you right now?class work.... fucking Joe becker and all his reading
Was last New Year's enjoyable?i cannot remmeber so I'll say yes haha
I'll bet you miss someone right now?i do.
What is your desktop picture?daniel columbine... but it changes... a lot
Do you shop for clothes?eh if i need to or want to not much
Where do you think your best friend is right now?i dont have one
Who else is in the room with you right now?butterscotch and matt..... I wanna hit whoever told him he could sing
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? a bit yeah
Do you have any enemies?i think so but probably not
Do you live in newfoundland, if so, do you like it?uh no it sucks

Which jonas brother do you prefer?I hate them..
Would you rather go to the mall, or out with friends?out with friends.

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?so many times it has gotten old
Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong?yes... {I like making people mad and yelling.. sadly it makes me happy}
What did you do today?Math class, work, class work, more class work, oh i should be doing more class work right now

How is your hair?it should be washed
Do you like your first name?nope. thats why i dont use it
Do you like to cuddle?sure
How many people of the opposite sex have you REALLY cried over?one
Who was the last person's voice you heard?matt
When did you last cry?a while ago
Have you ever been cheated on?Yes
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with R?if on the cheek counts then yes
Does anyone call you babe?no
Do you tend to make relationships complicated?not on purpose
Who was the last person who called you?Dee
Last thing to make you real happy?saturday night with rob... best thing that happened all week/weekend the rest blew.
Has anyone told you they missed you lately?yes

Monday sunday Blues

Well yesterday pretty much sucked.
Is it possible for a relationship to change just because you smoked with someone?
I think it can bring two people closer... well I do for now.

burn baby

well me and the unknown love of my life just had the greatest burn ride to mad town whilst on the clock yeah im so fucong tired right now also its not the greatest idea to not eat before going to work or like at all that day and then go on a burn ride think i woulda learnig my lesson from the woods. but it was awesome seriosly i never though id have to be stuck in a car with robbie ad the have said ride turn out like that... come to think of it he said something before we left and i didnt get it but said yheah anyway know im pretty sure it was lets just get fucking stoned. yeah it probably was.

Kick that bitch

Sometimes I really want to kick Myspace in its stupid face
..... it's just to bad it doesn't have one.

Someone should kick it in the pixles or something. >:(

fishy

yeah

Here Kitty Kitty

Well my slutty cat chose the perfect time to have her babies... this morning around 8:30 while I was sleeping quite peacefully until the screams of "GET UP YOUR CAT NEEDS YOU!!" woke me up try as I might have to ignore the invading sounds I got up since I had class this morning anyway. Turns out she needed my help because my dad tried to pick the first kitten up off the floor to put it on something warm and she freaked out and drug the kitten behind the washing machine. Well we got it out and so far she's had four... she had the last one literally like three minutes ago.
It's the funniest thing hearing your mom try to talk a cat through labor really.

NaNo

Well it's official as of a couple days ago I'm going to be participating in this years NaNoWriMo ie National Novel Writing Month. Every November thousands of people get together {online} and try to write a 50k word novel in 30 days from Nov. 1st - Nov. 30th and this year I'll partake in this little event. Truthfully I'm very excited and can't wait until Nov. 1st so I can start!! I already have the story idea set to go.
I just hope I'll have time to write every day ontop of all the school work and normal work I have to do. I'll find away since I'm surrently trying to write 17k in ten days for something else. I'll get it done.

In other news my participation grade for Joe Becker is back at an A- happy about that, but I'm sure it's going to go back down again this week. :/

myspace

just an update letting everyone know I still hate myspace.

and I have a killer bump on my head from being punched spetacularly hard. gotta love sibling fights over nothing. I mean come on calling some stupid for not knowing how to use a computer mouse should not means for throwing a very hard plastic cup at someone.
I amazes me though how we can go from being at each others throat one second and the best of friends the next... well mostly I think theres always a part of me that wants to wring his neck.

home :)

well I arrived home from the show at about 4 am this morning slept for a few hours and went to work and i have to be back there in about half an hour so this will be brife.

The show, there are like no words to describe its awesomeness so all I'm going to say is it was the most fucking amazing thing ever. We got there early enough so I was at the front the whole time.... my ears are still ringig on and off. All the bands rocked and I'd go see every single one of them again if possible.

I'm still sore from the mosh pit, my left arm is ridiculous, I got elbowed pretty hard in the chest it was very unpleasent but at the time I couldn't care less, but it hurts like a bitch now. I thought my toes were broken a few times but all in all it was fun .. even getting kicked and elbowed in the head. I love rock concerts and being in the pit it's one of the best things in the world, so though it may sound like I'm complaining I'm not because if I had to to it again there's no doubt that I would be in the pit pushing back against everyone that was pushing me.

I found it ind of dumb that during Children of Bodom's set there was pretty much no moshing. All anyone wanted to do was get to the front and be as close to them as they could... wich is why I'm happy I got there early cause at the front is where I wanted to be for the whole thing, so I was.

I managed to take some pictures through out the chaos most of them suck (everytime I went to get a good picture of Alexi someone stuck there arm in the way) but I did get a couple good ones. I especially love the one I got of Hennka.

If I have time later I may post more on this and possibly the pics.... the good ones anyway.

COB update

There has been a change in my plans and I am now leaving in 40 minutes to go to Worcester.
FUCK YEAH!!!
HELL TO THE YEAH!!!

Pinchers.

I'm just going to say that people that pinch should be kicked extremely hard in their head, and know exactly why the'y're being kicked... actually we should kick them more than once. Stupid bastards. And for those of you who don't understand this I'm not talking about one person physically pinching another, but I'm not going into detail about it figure it out for yourself. All I'm saying is that when I pay for something I expect to get all of it not half. And that little fucker is going to find that out really soon.

Still on a better note. Leaving for Children of Bodom show in t-minus 6 hours and counting!

It can go down hill from here...

and the cold worsens. Actually it's probably not any worse than it was yesterday. It just sucks major balls that I still have it. I had to leave class twice today just to blow my nose. I'm bringing tissues with me to my next one which I have to leave for in like five minutes. But I'm still in high spirits you could probably guess why by now!

Also something that I've been saying for a while now is that my ultimate show to see would be Slipknot and Children of Bodom together. Doesn't it figure that they're touring Europe together?
Why can't they do that here? :(

Bugger!

Well I officially have some sort of cold which completely sucks since the Bodom concert is like four days away now and I'm leaving for it in three {on Thursday} to get some time in with my family still in Worcester. But I will not let this sickness get me down. Oh no! There is nothing that will keep me away from seeing Alexi Laiho up on that stage. I've been waiting for years for this... even more so because I missed out on the opportunity last year, or maybe it was just earlier this year. I can't remember. So I'll be going to the show loaded up on dayquil and who knows what. It's going to be amazing!!!

Something else that kinda sucks. I have to work tomorrow at 7 in the morning. I very much dilike having to get out of bed for class at 9:30 let alone have to be up and ready to go before 7... who gets up that early. On a better note after Wednesday I wont have to work again until Sunday, and better yet after tomorrow I'll have no classes to worry about {except the ones online} until next Thursday, because of the time I'm taking off for the concert and Monday and Tuesday's college vacation {I havn't had classes on Wednesday since my first semester}... really can't get better than that! :)

I accidently gauged my ear to a 6 earlier today. I suppose it's not good because I only just put it back at an 8 like Friday, but whatev and it's only one ear the other is still at an 8. It truly was an accident! I was trying to get my stupid cancave 8 gauges in and guess what since they're bigger around the ends you can't get them in if your ear is only an 8 so what the fuck is the point in calling them an 8 gauge if the hole has to be bigger tha that to get it in!

So that's all for today.
Now I'm back to reading Thoreau's Walden for Prof. Joe Becker at least it's easier to get through than Emerson was :/

Urge.

Have you ever just had the urge to listen to a certain band, or song. And if you didn't listen to it right away it bother the hell out of you?
Well that happened to me today. I just all of a sudden had the urge to listen to Jezabelle by Iron and Wine. Sam Beam's voice and lyrics are just amazing. So I've been listening to Iron and Wine for hours now.

One a different note. If you mix excedrin and dayquil together you'll feel happy... well if you have a headache and cold you will!

Also never let a 15 year old "mechanic" try to fix your car radio it most likly will not end well especially if the radio he's trying to put into the car has water damage and does not work anymore. It's too bad it was a lovly radio from my granfather for my first car... it was also a nice car that's now been sitting behind my house for about a year I just can't let it go. It's less than two years away from being a classic and I love it... but I guess that's just because it was my first car, and it has to go because I'm not paying to fix it and I already have another car. Anyways back to the radio I had to spend a total of about 70 dollars on a new radio {lukily it was on sale or it would have been well over 100 dollars} and a docking station, because aparatnly they don't make radios for my car anymore :/ And this was all so we could have good music to listen to on the 7 hours {both ways} trip to Worcester.

Fuck Myspace

For some reason or another my internet connection and Myspace don't like eachother. I can never post a bulliten on there from this comp or my laptop {when it's on this connection}
So since I just wasted time doing this music thing for a Myspace post... I'll just post it here

Put your shit on shuffle kids, no cheating.

Next next next!
1. Which song describes the mood you are in right now?
I am the Walrus ~ The Beatles
2. Which song describes the mood you are usually in?
Foxy Foxy ~ Rob Zombie
3. Which song describes one of your favorites things to do?
Banana Pancakes ~ Jack Johnson
4. Which song describes something else you like to do?
I Love to Say Fuck ~ Murderdolls
{It's true!}
5. Which song explains the way you think about love?
Paradise City ~ Guns N Roses
6. What would you sing to your soulmate right now?
Get Stoned ~ Hinder
{wow I probably could}
7. Which song best represents you?
I'll be There ~ Me First and the Gimmie Gimmies
8. Which song describes your sexual preference?
Sugar Wolf ~ From Autumn to Ashes
9. Which song describes what would occur between you and a (male) prostitute?
Bring the Noise ~ Anthrax
10. Your lover on the side?
Drown You Out ~ Crossfade
11. How about your wife or husband?
Thrash ~ Korn
12. Which song would be played at your wedding?
Don't Stop Believing ~ Journey {I doubt it}
13. Which song would be played at your wedding reception?
The Wicked ~ Stone Sour
14. Which song describes yourself in the future?
Animal I've Become ~ Three Days Grace
15. Which song describes yourself in the past?
A Box Full of Sharp Objects ~ The Used
16. Which song would be appropriate for a one night stand?
Sick Sick Sick ~ Queens of the Stone Age
17. Which song would best describe your first time kissing?
Losing my Religion ~ R.E.M
18. Your first time having sex?
Sober ~ Tool
19. Which song would best describe your fashion sense?
Something I Can Never Have ~ Nine Inch Nails
20. Which song would describe your taste in the opposite or same sex?
To be Loved ~ Papa Roach
21. Which song best describes your parents?
Basket Case ~ Green Day
22. Which song best describes your family in general?
The Fragile ~ Nine Inch Nails
23. Which song best describes your friends?
Wonderwall ~ Oasis
24. Which song best describes your school?
Through the Fire and Flames ~ Dragon Force
25. Which song best describes your public personality?
Shockwave ~ Black Tide
26. Which song best describes your private personality?
Coming Undone ~ Korn
27. The weather outside is... A Beautiful Tragedy ~ With Broken Wings
28. I feel like... Swing Life Away ~ Risa Against
29. I would really love to... Stand Alone ~ GodSmack
30. No one can stop me from... The Reason ~ Hoobastank
31. Today I will... Snap ~ Slipknot
32. Love is like... Until the Day I Die ~ Story of the Year
33. I would call myself... Vermilion ~ Slipknot
34. I've never been to... Naked as We Came ~ Iron and Wine
35. If I were a... Blood and Thunder ~ Mastodon
36. Never forget... I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) ~ The Used
37. Noone believes me when... Best of me ~ Starting Line
38. I would never... Thunderkiss '65 ~ White Zombie
39. I could see myself as... Remedy ~ Seether
40. I'm as fun as... Blind Man ~ Black Stone Cherry
41. I wish... You Don't Know How it Feels ~ Tom Petty
42. She will never understand why... Hexagram ~ Deftones
43. I'm nearly... Awake ~ Godsmack
44. I want to see... Down With the Sickness ~ Disturbed
45. At night time... Reinventing Your Exit ~ Underoath
46. My fashion sense is... 10001110101 ~ Clutch
47. I cry when... Blood Red Summer ~ Coheed and Cambria
48. The moon is... So Many People ~ Neurosonic
49. I get tired when... The Sounds of Silence ~ Simon and Garfunkle
50. I lack... One Thing ~ Finger Eleven
51. I'm so absorbing in... Please Bleed ~ Ben Harper
52. I should be... Pet ~ A Perfect Circle
53. I can't seem to forget... Day Old Hate ~ City & Colour
54. Where in the world is... Umbrella ~ Lillasyster
55. I don't want to hear... Hate Me! ~ Children of Bodom
56. Don't give up on... 45 ~ Shinedown
57. I should give up on... Soul Meets Body ~Death Cab for Cutie
58. I want to be... Mr. Jones ~ Counting Crows
59. I like alot of... The Drugs Don't Work ~ The Verve
60. I often think about... Sky is Over ~ Serj Tankian
61. I don't understand why... Why Can't I get just one Kiss ~ The Violent FemmesHa.
62. Guys are... Love Games ~ The Mighty Boosh
63. Girls go to... House of Cards ~ Madina Lake
64. I'm in trouble for... Motel of the White Locust ~ Glassjaw
65. Candy is for... Anyone Else but You ~ Moldy Peaches
66. Take me to... Mindtrip ~ Nonpoint
67. All I've ever cared about was... Look What You've Done ~ Jet
68. Take me away from... Silver and Cold ~ AFI
69. The worst possible thing is... Dry the River ~ Maylene and the Sons of Disaster

Random?

Yeah so what's the most random thing that could have happened at 10:30 at night? How about Laura and Shelby showing up at my door out of the blue. Supposidly they were in the neighborhood, but seriously no one is ever in the violette settlement hood this late at night unless they live up here or someones having a party, which means tey drove all the way up here just to see me. I'll admit that it put a smile on my face. I havn't hung out with them in a couple weeks do to being bogged down with work and all this reading for class. I should actually be reading right now, but I'll do anything to put it off .... and I really shouldn't, it's all I have left to do for this week's class assignments. I still have to start next week's sometime this weekend.

In other news tomorrow marks the day that I've had my industrial piercing for two weeks. Yay me! I kinda love it. The only thing is my ears arn't really all that curvy so it looks a bit... I guess awkward would be the right word... or not... because it really looks fine.

And on that note... I'm leaving to see Children of Bodom in less than 7 days now. I still cannot wait, but I've been waiting years already so what's another 7 days?

Thoughts

Sometimes I find myself wondering what the hell it's all about. Why am I here? What am I living for? Why am I holding on to it? Why can't I just let it all go?
I can picture myself falling into a never ending black abyss sometimes the feeling is wonderful, and other i find that the thought makes my chest tight and my eyes want to spill tears.
I guess I think that in the end all the shit I'm working through isn't really helping me get any further along in life than something I'd rather be doing would. I just can't see the point in life.
Most of the time I can't see the point in going to class, the only thing keeping me there is the thought of my parents being disappointed in me once again. Is that why I'm trying so hard to get my GPA back up, just to see a smile on the faces that I want to smash in most of the time. Don't get me wrong I love them but I can hardly see them anymore as anything better than another torn on the rose of my life. And I know it's wrong because when I stop and think about it they do still give me so much more than they have to.

In better news only ELEVEN more days until CHILDREN OF BODOM!
I cannot wait for that. It's going to be amazing.

Mail Time

So what's better than the mail arriving nd giveing you something to do for oh about 30 seconds.
I don't know how about Jim Roots masked face filling up you're mailbox?

That's right the first thing I saw todat when opening my mailbox was Jim Root's face adorning the new issue of Revolver magazine. To say the least I was almost estatic it put a smile on my face. Not something easy to do these days with all the shit I have to be doing... I just have no time for um life. But anyway it's a special edition of the magazine there are 10 different covers for the magazine this month, showing the different members of Slipknot and then one of them all together, and I was lucky enough to get the one with Jim on it. I'll let you in on a little secret he's in my top three guys I like from Slipknot... not saying I don't love them all, but Jim is just awesome.